Shock Trauma

Waking up in the hospital was the most terrifying experience I have ever had. I was cold, scared, and to my knowledge-alone.The room was dark and quiet.I could not move anything but my eyeballs. I tried to tell myself this was a nightmare and I would wake up at any moment.
What was more frightening was the fact I could not see anything!
The smell and sounds of the room were unfamiliar. I tried to move my legs. They would not move. I tried to move my arms. "What? Am I dead?" My heart raced 100 mph. Suddenly,I could hear the beeping of machines around me. Whew! OK OK I'm not dead.
Oh my GOD! What is going on?
I heard voices...laughter... the sound of footstep approaching. I have been kidnapped! oh god Kaya get up! RUN!(yes, I am a dramatic at times)
I heard footsteps approaching.I could tell from the sound the persons was walking on A doctor? No white coat. A nurse. He spoke to me. I think he said " you are in the hospital. You have been hurt, Everything is okay. Calm down". I could feel the tears trying to form in my eyes but nothing would come out. Why? I could not speak. A tube was down my throat. A could not move my head because of the collar. Am I paralyzed?
The nurse:
You are in Shock Trauma. Your family is here. Everything is alright.
Me:
why am I in Shock Trauma?
but it came out,
shaah ahm aaa stwaaa caah ( my jaws were wired shut)
The nurse: I can't understand you honey.
Me:
Oh chit!
He told me to try not to moved as he tighten straps around my body.

Once again my seems to beat out of my chest. At this point I took control of my SELF. I went deep inside myself and like that I gained composure. Since that moment, I have use this technique as well as other to bring my self back to center. I wasn't scared anymore, still I knew my journey had just begun.